One Foot On The Gas Rambling about shit no one cares about

I told her she needed to prove to me that it was still worth the time, and the pain to be with her and she did. I know I should have ended it but I didn’t want to, that was the difference. I couldn’t convince myself that I wanted to, only that I should stay with her. So I hope she proves herself this time, I’m tired of being hurt and betrayed.

My girlfriend cheated on me, sent a picture to another guy, I decided I’d get past it and give her a chance. Things were really rocky for a long time with the me being overprotective and the trust being gone, she also had a best friend who was a male but she repeatedly told me that there was nothing there at all and I had nothing to worry about. Then one day they’re not friends anymore because he was tired if not getting to spend time with her and she chose me. Awesome right? Well not so awesome when I looked at her Facebook messages and she was telling him all about theses fun things that she wanted to do to his dick. She begged and pleaded for me not to leave, I eventually agreed to give her yet another chance to not be a total backstabbing, lying, two-faced person and I just feel sick about it. I don’t think I should be in this relationship anymore but I think she needs me and I really want her, but I don’t know which matters more, me knowing what’s right, or me being too love drunk and stupid to do what’s probably best. I need help…

I have a different, more public tumblr, but I want to be able to talk about things in their truest, most raw form and not censor things to please my friends, significant others, etc. No one wants to hear about this, but if you like angsty teen ramblings about his girl problems then this is the blog for you!